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| things i'm thinking about right now. |
| 08.15.04 (7:14 pm) [edit] |
Right now i am thinking about a lot of stuff. nothing important really. just some thoughts that i've thought tonight. I just got home from a movie with craig at the little. its this really incredible independant theater. one of a kind as far as i've seen. it's where craig and i spent our first date. so it will always have some sort of magic within it. aside from the charm of it all, just that it feels so familiar. like a sunny afternoon under a tree, or like a moonlit evening driving alongside a field shimmering and swaying in the light. It's a memory i keep close to me. I really think its important to have a box full of these things that you can always think back to no matter where you may find yourself down the road. Another magic place is arena's downtown, right near the little actually. its a place of inspiration for me. a glistening jem in a shallow pool.
I'm also thinking about when teeta might come visit me this week, all of the places i would like to show her here. i was thinking earlier that there may not be so many things to do here, but there's just so many places i love to spend time and probably hundreds more waiting to be discovered.
So, just keep in mind all of the little magical places that surround you and remember to keep them in that little box to look back on someday.
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| Bombs Away! |
| 08.13.04 (10:35 am) [edit] |
So i figured after giving you the whole work speech yesterday I may as well tell you about the recent events happening at the magical homo depot. Wednesday, I was asked to go out and help in the lot since they had no one to get carts and stuff. So i said i really didn't want to because lord knows i can't lift a bag of cement for someone to save my life. So i talked mary into just carts. Little did i know, there was a dark shadow looming in the sun filled skies over head. As i began to chase down carts across that enormous lot, out of nowhere said shadow swooped down on me and shit all over my arm. I was completely grossed out. Not really pissed off because as you know, i don't let things piss me off anymore. But i couldn't believe my luck that the one hour all summer i work out in lot, i get crapped on by a dumb seagull.
Another interesting story from the big orange box is about one of my lovely customers. This woman is checking out with a 24 pack of diet coke. Now, normally we do not sell diet coke but as a special promotion we are selling it and including two $5 dollar off coupons inside. Miss Diet Coke decides i want to use one of those coupons now and tears open the end of the box. Three pressurized cans pop out onto the concrete floor and spring leaks all over the place. The woman is then picking the things up and as she does soaks the mid sections of all the customers in the line across from mine. I can still replay the whole moment in my mind in slow motion. I can picture the faces of all those people getting soaked in diet coke attempting to jump out of the line of fire. And then there's me just watching the entire thing thinking damn that was fun.
I guess that's plenty of depot talk for this week. Tune in next week to see what shall happen next at the duct tape depot.
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| retail rodeo |
| 08.12.04 (12:29 pm) [edit] |
I'm writing this just before i have to leave for another fabulous night at the depot. I have taken on a new personal mantra; i am no longer taking crap from customers. This means, in short, that i will no longer make myself anxious, angry, or attitudal over customers remarks, stares and murmurs. As of lastnight, it is working flawlessly. There's just some things about a job that are not worth getting worked up over. I am there to provide customer service, not customer servitude. I'm trying to brainwash Jen now to think the same way, by next weekend i'll have those unruly customers in ship shape.
Now i'm tell you all this because you are totally involved in this process. you are either the antagonist or the hero. you choose. tell yourself every day that some things are just not worth fussing about. ESPECIALLY OLD WRINKLED FART BAGS THAT GIVE YOU DIRTY LOOKS BECAUSE YOU'RE SPORTING A FAUXHAWK AND SPEAKING WITH A LISP. GET YOUR DAMN NUTS AND BOLTS AND GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!
so now that you are all better prepared for facing the retail rodeo, i have to head to work.
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| Do' you like it? |
| 08.03.04 (5:08 pm) [edit] |
fauxhawk (FOH.hawk) n. A hairstyle in which a strip of hair across the top of the head is longer and higher than the hair on the remainder of the head. Also: faux-hawk.
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| On an Afternoon Such as This |
| 07.28.04 (12:54 pm) [edit] |
i'm feeling
the feeling
when i think about snow.
tori said it best.
just listening;
makes me cold.
its vast and extreme.
a sky so cluttered
and yet so e-m-p-t-y.
the trees curl their toes in the frost.
every breath is a puff of clouds.
blissful overhead,
crunching beneath.
the sun couldn't be further away.
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| Three cheers for Teeta! |
| 07.20.04 (11:11 am) [edit] |
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I can't tell you how excited i am to have teeta joining the tblog circuit. T is my longtime friend and the most inspirational person i know. She is a princess faerie that enjoys life and is blessed with the most creative mind. Her words of wisdom and endless enthusiasm make her blog a daily stop along my everyday trail.
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| midnight matters. |
| 07.14.04 (8:22 pm) [edit] |
after it stops raining.
lamplight glows in the wet pavement.
the smell of cold in summer.
its unfriendly.
i would walk alone in silence.
passing cars. passing houses.
taking in the all of the night with one breath.
i forget sometimes.
that time stops and repeats itself.
intervals of 12.
summer will yield to the fall.
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| itch itch scratch scratch |
| 07.14.04 (8:12 am) [edit] |
So I have poison ivy now...
I just recently spent the fourth of july at craig's parents' cottage on "Happy" Lake as i like to call it, unfortunately sometime during my constant struggle against the mosquitos i totally forgot about making sure my feet were staying out of poison ivy. so today i wake up with more patches of it than yesterday. Those patches include but are not limited to; a bump on my middle finger, in and around my left ear, a few in my scalp i think, and of course both of my ankles. I solemly swear never to go up there again wearing less than a space suit.
What else is new in Kensville you ask... I am on this new kick to eat healthy. In fact, I'm currently consuming a bowl of organic oats and dried cranberries. its just incredibly awesome. and much better than those greasy breakfast microwaveable things with the flaky crust and goop inside. This new diet also consists of as much water possible per day, fresh fruit and vegetables like carrots. oH! and absolutely anything with real blueberries in it is supposed to be great for you. so we shall see how long it lasts. hopefully a while. Its driving craig nuts, but maybe he'll think twice before he eats another one of those calorie loaded fat pellets considered a "great start" to the day :)
New in music, i am listening to any nick drake covers i can find, especially Norah Jones cover of When the Day is Done. I'm also liking the band South and i'm back to Aimee Mann again. Its really funny how i listen to particular styles of music during particular parts of the year. I am slowly evolving into my fall bracket of music. I am a big fan of the summer, don't get me wrong, but i absolutely love the fall. The whole world sorta slows down and it just enraptures you.
But its only July and i need to stop before people get mad and start throwing their frisbees and beach balls at me.
anyway, enjoy the summer and watch out for poison ivy.
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| Alright Already!!!!!! |
| 07.09.04 (8:10 pm) [edit] |
So i'm writing a blog entry. But first!!! I am laying some ground rules. Capeesh?
everything written in this blog from so forth shall be the sole property of yours truly and if anyone has beef with that they can just deal. I am going to say anything i want, whenever i want, and for whatever reason i want. You are allowed to get upset, but i would rather not hear about it unless it is something that seriously wrongs you or your character. In that matter, please mail a formal complaint complete with a self addressed envelope bearing the proper postage so that i can send you my deepest apologies. But keep in mind, i will not be censoring this material for anyone's eyes. I have had absolutely enough with worrying about what not to write.
THAT SAID....
I am having an alright evening. I worked today for seven long hours at the depot, yes i am an oompa loompa of the home depot. i can tell you where pretty much everything is in that store as well as a guesstimate price. earlier this morning, i woke up and had to go buy plants with craig because thats just what people do at 9:30 am. they go buy plants. following work, (sorry for the time warps), craig and i went to a rhino's game. they lost. big surprise. i should have known it was headed nowhere when i recieved my not so jumbo hot dog which was burnt to a crisp. although the funnel cake mess was a good time. we then came home and i chatted with norma for a bit and played with buddy. which brings us to now. i am pondering who someone is on my buddy list. they are not responding. i have some tv jingles annoyingly blasting through my head. i just listened to a kinnie star song i loved from the L word, awesome show. and craig is in bed.
I have found a car i am totally in love with, and am probably setting myself up for a major fall... but i want this one really really bad and am about to go down there and promise these people my first born. i don't have one of those and doubt i am making one anytime soon. but maybe they will accept a puppy in exchange or perhaps a spider plant. the car is a blue jetta and it calls my name. even right now. creepy huh? i just know i need a car soon and i need THIS CAR! i drew a cute picture of it tonight at work while i was enjoying the thrills of self checkout. thats SELF checkout. the sign says it. I say it. now you GET it. i don't ring up your lousy paintbrushes and weedwackers, you do it yourSELF! sorry, just blowing off some work steam. helps to do that before my next shift.
oh yeah, i watched 50 first dates lastnight. i thought it was cute. mostly because i have short term memory too. i watched 50 first dates lastnight. i thought it was.... wait.... de ja vue. hahahahaha.
go to sleep you silly creatures!!
much hugs!
ken*
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| BJ's woman |
| 04.23.04 (2:55 pm) [edit] |
so this woman at Bj's thinks i look hyper.
She comes over to craig to see that we are buying some candy and she says "are these for you or for him?" (looking down at me from behind her granny glasses) Craig says, "they're for him." She goes, "I thought so. He looks hyper. You might wanna reconsida, he looks like he don't need them."
I wanted to go back in and get a picture with her after he tells me what she said on our way out.
People are so funny.
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| Love/Hate |
| 04.22.04 (6:59 pm) [edit] |
I've made a list of things in my life i love and hate right now. It could function as a checklist of things to change.
I love craig and i can never tell him enough.
I love the fact that it's spring and it's starting to get warm at dusk.
I love the promise of a new job.
I love buddy the dog.
I love that I am good at something.
I love ice cream and gellato.
I love sitting indian style in a chair.
I love driving on nice days with the sunroof open.
I love using my ipod for grocery lists.
I love lighting candles.
I love fresh cut flowers.
I love colors and the way they make you feel.
I love looking at art and guessing what the artist was trying to say.
I love baking cookies and eating them right after.
I love the smell of old books.
I hate the fact that I have to wait for a freak income boost to get a haircut.
I hate the fact that I have 3 pairs of jeans which i switch between every day.
I hate the zit on my nose right now.
I hate the cough i've had for over 3 weeks.
I hate being tired all the time when there's work i need to get done.
I hate that i say things i don't mean.
I hate that i do nothing with friends and call them even less.
I hate avoiding someone for no reason.
I hate noise.
I hate being broke and having such high expectations of myself.
I hate that it takes two remotes to watch tv.
I hate the way i walk in public.
I hate not saying goodbye.
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| heeeeeeeeeeey. |
| 03.18.04 (11:28 am) [edit] |
Hi. I'm at home today bored out of my mind. And not feeling exactly terrific. I've got VH1's Totally Gayer blasting in the background, and you know, I really can't decide if it's making me happy gay people are all over the friggin tv, or if it's kinda degrading. I can't really say I feel part of all that at this point in my life, maybe i never did. I just feel that you should be allowed to pursue love in any direction. I almost wish i had what other guy men my age had, non stop partying megaqueen self aclaimed sex gods, but i'd say i'm pretty happy being just a sarcastic fed up fag. I guess what i mean to say is, life isn't always glamour. Some people just need a reality check once in a while.
eh, i'm done writing for now. someone call me.
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| Quite a long time... |
| 03.08.04 (8:28 pm) [edit] |
Yes, my adoring fans, it has been altogether much too long since i last updated this page. Therefore to make up for my lapse in creativity and commitment, i have totally revamped the look of this beautiful page.
So what is new you ask? Today was officially the start of the last quarter of my Junior year at RIT. Today also marked what i hope to be the beginning of my lucky streak. I recieved news today of a job opening at Audi, Stickley and Co which is a furniture store, Internationaly known, with a store just ten minutes down the road. My interview is a week today and i am very excited and nervous all at the same time. I have been looking for a job for quite some time and am praying this will work out for me.
Aside from this exciting new opportunity, we are currently undergoing some massive bathroom surgery here at club 131. Our shower has been totally ripped out and we are in the process of rebuilding the whole thing from scratch with a new and improved jet system, glass tile, and a heated slate floor. Exciting stuff, huh? Well it better be since i will have been showering in the upstairs bathroom for 2 months by the time this is finished.
I am looking forward to a number of things in the near and not so distant future. Hopefully, me getting this job at Stickley and making enough money to begin covering my expenses and paying off my debts, as well as being able to finally get a dog. I have been wanting a dog ever since the day my English Setter, Freckles passed away when i was 13. I do have two loving cats, and have access to Buddy, a chubby little shitzu, but this is a dream i would like to fufill for myself someday. I just got my passport photo taken, and will be going through the rest of the paperwork later this week. And once getting that in hand, will hopefully be getting the opportunity to see europe this summer. So keep me in your thoughts and just maybe, with a little bit of luck and some magic in my pockets, things will start to come together for me.
I missed everyone very much and am hereby declaring my newfound commitment to the upkeeping of this blog. And i only ask one thing in return, you keep me in your thoughts as i keep you in mine.
much love all.
ken*
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| la la blah! |
| 01.20.04 (6:15 pm) [edit] |
so i saw american idol tonight, well the end at least. Mind you, i hate this show and would not have bothered but i was finishing a glass of wine and may i stress, STILL waiting for craig to get back from the gym. Anyway, this american idol thing may have caught my attention. there was this kid at the very end, completely awful "singing" sweet home alabama. forgot the words, yet thought he was worthy of earning the judges respect and qualifying for the top tier. ummm... there must be something seriously wrong for anyone to go on that show even if they have an ounce of what it takes. but this kid was HORRIBLE. i mean, maybe he had some kind of condition which made him sound friggin incredible in his head, but to everyone else... it was like.... well craig's singing right now.
anyone just wanted to mock that kid out and now i have to go take headache meds to handle the night ahead of me with a crazy ranting c face.
love to the kids.
ken*
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| My new and improved Goals. |
| 01.20.04 (9:00 am) [edit] |
so here is a list of things i need:
A. new job - i have no clue where to start looking for a job.
Right now it's hard to imagine me finding something and
sticking with it, but i most likely will.
B. Money- this can be attained by a number of ways. Most
likely by completing task A and recieving paychecks.
But does not have to. I can win at bingo everyweek,
win the lotto, sell snow sculptures ( i like this idea, as
snow is abundant right now. and cheap!) Someone can
give me all of their money if they aren't planning on
using it. Like convicted felons, old maids, whathaveyou.
C. New friends - Craigo feels we don't have enough who
we can do things with. Most of our friends are leading
very busy lives and cannot keep us entertained on a
weekly basis. This goal could also be attained by
comepleting task A. maybe. if like people there. I am
very picky who i choose to hang around with. I can be
a very shallow, mean, annoying, etc person and only
the people with strong stomachs can generally handle
me. kudos to all of you.
D. School - I need to get my school shit in order and start
finishing things by their deadlines. School is bad,
therefore, i should want it to end as soon as possible,
not the case if i stay on my current track.
E. Shower - I smell and i need to do this before goals A
through D. see you later.
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| The Return of the Slean |
| 01.18.04 (6:00 pm) [edit] |
So here is my posting devoted entirely to getting Miss Sarah Slean to come back to Rochester as soon as possible.
I am aware that Miss Sarah with an "h" is working diligently on her new album, allegedly... Boy Wonder. When parting with Miss Slean on a warm evening last spring we exchanged words over when her new album is due out, the radiant Miss Slean hoped for sometime in February. I may be mistaken, but i believe she said she was having trouble with record label. But tonight, as i am bewitched by her sweet musings of California I am drawn back to that evening in the lilacs, a night she played this very song and stole my heart. So now my thoughts are being sent out to her on snowflakes drifting across the great divide to wherever it is she may be this night. And with all the magic within this brisk night i wish her godspeed back to Rochester and the very best of luck with her new album.
~i wish i was by your side..~
ken*
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| and.....2004. |
| 01.18.04 (8:10 am) [edit] |
 Icicle, icicle, where are you going?
I saw this icicle this morning and it actually inspired me to write a new blog. That and everyone i know has been nagging me to update.
So here it is, the new year. It hardly feels new though. it feels like the same old path i've been following for lifetimes. And on this path, there is me, lost frightened child with no flashlight slowly evolving into a fearless and less imaginative adult. eh.
Its been quite a slow month so far. Freezing cold, today's probably the first nice day in a while. But by nice, of course i mean above 30 degrees. I was about to pack my bags for boca raton yesterday. there's about 4-5 inches of slush everywhere I go and its just not a fun thing. Also, the part where i almost killed myself slipping on every floor i attempted to stand on. the worst though, was when i almost broke my back in the new Eastview expansion, the new shiny wet floored, eastview expansion. All for the sake of pottery barn. We were out searching for the final touches for our newly remodeled guest bathroom. It's finally done! after probably a month's labor. just need to get a few more things which are on order.
But, back to the icicle. I'm all about tori the past two days. I'm listening to a bunch of songs from under the pink and scarlet's walk. there's just something about that girl that you can't ever get out of your system. she'll always be there for me like a good bowl of easymac. hehe. someday i'll let go of that stuff.
Ummmmm.... i don't know what else to write about, but i think i'll be popping back in here real soon and get myself back into the habbit of writing. If you have any questions, feel free to drop me a line and give me something to write about.
Much luv.
ken*
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| your bloggin turn! |
| 12.28.03 (2:19 pm) [edit] |
so what is new with you?
i'm always doing the writing it seems. gets tough sometimes being the only side of a conversation.
so now it's your turn to talk.
i just get so fed up sometimes. even graham is being a wally today.
tbye.
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| yay!!! |
| 12.26.03 (6:19 pm) [edit] |
back to rochester tomorrow. very excited.
no more roaming charges!!! yay!!!
hopefully i will get my pony tomorrow too!!! yay!!
get to see patty!!! yay!!
get to see C Face!! yay!!!!
better blogs again. yay!!!
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| Happy Christmas |
| 12.25.03 (10:46 am) [edit] |
Merry Christmas Bloggies!!!
I am home in Northeast Pennsylvania, NEPA for the locals. Sorta snowy, but could be whiter. But just making this one short and wishing everyone a happy holiday, no matter what you celebrate.
PS love from Graham.
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| Blech! |
| 12.22.03 (9:12 am) [edit] |
So lastnight, we pop on over to the corner blockbuster and picked up a few dvds. It was a hard decision because someone didn't want to see Pirates of the Carribean due to the over exposure to pirate life from survivor.
So, after much wandering, Dreamcatcher was chosen. I thought, supposed to be scary, sounds good. But silly silly ken, i thought it was about indians and ghosts and stuff. Absolutely not! it was about, of all things, ALIENS. I hate aliens like you have no idea. I was so friggin scared out my pants the whole film. Gets better, the things were spawning out of people's butts!!! Just ewwww.
So, lesson of this story, if you hate aliens, stay away from alien movies. yes, some are really really good like signs, but nightmares will incurr i asure you.
love and such.
ken*
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| Look out for Reindeer poop. |
| 12.21.03 (12:19 pm) [edit] |
today is not very exciting. It's afternoon and I have just finished eating grilled cheese. A little bit ago i drove all the way to school to pick up some things from my desk and alakazam! it's closed. So i drove over there for absolutely no reason. Coming back, on townline road, i was stuck between two people driving next to each other arguing out their windows. I think it's the time of year, people begin to lose it and start bumping heads. Silly silly stressed out shoppers, they need a good dose of chai tea and music to chill them out. That's sorta where i am right now, looking out the window at the snow on the roof. it looks a little like a snowpeak you expect to see somewhere in the Hemilayas. I'm listening to a really good song right now, it's "I can't take my eyes off of you" by melanie doane. Just the right song for a sunny afternoon.
I'm not sure what to do with the rest of my afternoon. I feel like i should make something, but the question is what and how. I'm tapped out on creativity due to school. Its like mental clogging over there all the time. I need mental draino. quick.
I'm dreading going back to PA on wednesday. First of all, the traffic is sure to be overwhelming. I have an action packed cd ready to go. I made it this morning, hopefully that will keep me sane during the neck to neck traffic on the thruway. But, aside from the traffic there's my mom. we haven't spoken in probably months. we're just both under a lot of stress and right now we seem to hate each other but i'm not sure if it's that deep-rooted. But, either way i'm not exactly looking forward to living under the same roof for a couple days. I am going to miss C and the cats a lot too. I swore to him in wegman's yesterday that next year, i am doing things right. I won't be broke and jobless and I will be staying here. I will make it a fantastic and wonderful christmas. And it would be fantastic if my family could get involved in that, but they're a difficult lot and don't really like the fact I am with craig. But hey, you never know. things could change. miracles happen sometimes.
I feel like i need a nap now. but i probably won't sleep. the name ricky williams is still reverberating in my head from the dolphins game that has been playing through the house.
Happy Hannukah.
much love.
ken*
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| I won cbrebals!!!! |
| 12.20.03 (9:38 pm) [edit] |
Yes that's me with a wig on doing the happyibeatcraigatscrabble dance. Yes, i know it's not an all time super high score or anything, but 235 isn't too shabby. I was on the ball tonight with such words as Id, bane, quill, i can't remember anymore and craig is too cranky. muuuuuch too cranky. so time for bed.
I WON SCRABBLE!!!
WOOOHOOOO HOOOO!!!!
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| All on a Snowy Winter's Eve... |
| 12.20.03 (5:26 pm) [edit] |
Yes, again, i have changed my style, but you know you just love it. I love snowflakes and what better way to show my love for them than to stick them here on my fantastic blogorama. Craig, you're lucky i don't stick you up here!! hehe.
Lord of the Rings was most excellent lastnight. We arrived a half hour early and still ended up sitting in the third row from the front. But it was equally as good. I actually cried at several parts. I will miss Frodo and Sam and the rest of them. well, that is, until the dvd comes out.
I am now working on expanding my christmas songs collection. There are just so many fabulous new christmas songs out there, and as my lifetime work, i have committed myself to forcing people to like christmas songs as much as i do. So... on that note, here are a few cds you should definitely look into:
MAYBE THIS CHRISTMAS TOO
THE REINDEER ROOM: CHRISTMAS CHILL
So deck those halls and trim those trees. Chill the room for 24 days and have yourself a merry little christmas or whatever it is you celebrate. Make it sparkle. Make it bright.
love.
ken*
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| lord of the bling blings |
| 12.19.03 (2:01 pm) [edit] |
Just finished watching Lord of the rings II, the two towers, well, this was like the third or fourth time watching it for me, and i have read all the books, but TONIGHT is the night. IMAX Lord of the Rings :The Return of the King. the last of the trilogy.
How did he become such a big dork you ask? Lots of practice, lol, and the fact i was bored one summer and read all the books. So due to an alarmingly boring summer, I now know everything about Frodo.
OK, enough about Frodo, Graham's getting a tad jealous. In other life news, school is oficially out for christmas break. so fabulous! Going out tonight after the movie to muthers. I can't wait. It's been weeks since i've been to a drag show and this sophie ellis bextor music has got me soooo inspired and psyched for hidden tiger crouching drag queens.
Well, my lovelies, its off to primp and such for a night out.
Love to all.
Happy snowflake catching.
ken*
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